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ON OUR FACES- an ongoing worship discussion

"The god's we worship write their names on our faces, be sure of that. And a man will worship something-have no doubt of that, either. He may think that his tribute is paid in secret in the dark recesses of his heart- but it will out. That which dominates will determine his life and character. Therefore, it behooves us to be careful what we worship, for what we are worshipping we are becoming." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Refuse to accept the status quo. I challenge everything. It is important to me that I understand why I do what I do and I'll challenge everyone else too because that is how I learn. Christ-follower, student, teacher, artist, musician, mother, wife, daughter, friend, home-schooler, doula, home-birther, knitter, abuse survivor, advocate of women, children, families and peace, I value relationships more than anything in this life. There is room for my life for my passions for birth, music, lit., nature, art, dance, knitting, cooking, Scripture, film, theology, philosophy, writing, and loving my family. I know I don't have all the answers and I'm willing to listen, I don't argue for the sake of arguing or to win but I am passionate and opinionated while being open to change. Wrap all that up and then some and serve it with a cup of coffee, a glass of wine and some chocolate and that's a little bit of who I am. Just an ordinary woman in my every day rebellious ways.

Friday, September 16, 2005

Where do you learn?

by Jessica


My mom taught me that we should never stop learning, never. Of all the lessons my mother taught me (and there are a lot) that is one that has had great impact on my life and I continue to learn. Where do we learn? That's kind of like asking "where do you worship?" Every where. All the time. Without ceasing.


We have class tonight hanging with some friends at CDG again. I appreciate our teachers at the shelter and look forward to another night of learning.


So where do you learn?

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Sunday's lies

by Jessica


When I was in middle school I remember the music pastor of my church making statement something along the lines of this: "Christians tell more lies while hiding behind a hymnal every Sunday morning than many people do during an entire week." Though I think that may be a bit of an overstatement (and they may lie even more now looking up at a screen...) I believe there is some truth in that. We often sing about what we believe, how committed we are, claim that Jesus is "our everything," and many other profound truths and statements without even considering the implication of making such a bold claim. Sadly, sometimes we are also proclaiming un-truth. There have been great strides made in this area but there is still plenty of room for improvement including educating not only our leaders but also our ministry teams and our congregations. Even just this past Sunday I stopped myself mid phrase in a really cool sounding worship song (musically this piece was great) because I realized that I didn't agree with and therefore couldn't sing those words.

Whether we're lying about what we feel, believe, and promise of ourselves and how we live or are singing false teachings, Scripture says that we are to enter into worship with care:


Ecclesiastes 5
1Guard your steps as you go to the house of God and draw near to listen rather than to offer the
sacrifice of fools; for they do not know they are doing evil.
2Do not be
hasty in word or impulsive in thought to bring up a matter in the presence of God For God is in heaven and you are on the earth; therefore let your
words be few.
3For the dream comes through much effort and the voice of a
fool through many words.
4When you
make a vow to God, do not be late in paying it; for He takes no delight in fools
Pay what you vow!
5It is
better that you should not vow than that you should vow and not pay.
6Do not let your speech cause you to sin and do not say in the presence of the messenger of God that it was a
mistake. Why should God be angry on account of your voice and destroy the work of your hands?
7For in many dreams and in many words there is emptiness. Rather,
fear God.



I was recently asked to share my thoughts on pursuing greater theological depth and breadth in the lyrical content of songs of the church. Here's what I shared:


Very early in my ministry I was challenged by a very traditional older man about some worship lyrics that were very popular at the time and even though I tried to argue with him I couldn't. He was right about the lyrics lacking in theological and doctrinal integrity and I couldn't deny that this seemed to be an alarming trend in many worship lyrics. Since that time as both a worship leader and a song writer I have sought to be a gatekeeper of the content of the worship songs that I share with others. I believe that in order to truly be effective in pursuing this goal the leader must be immersed in the study of Scripture and spending time with the Lord in order to maintain an understanding of what honors Him and to not allow any room for personal integrity to be compromised. My experience in this area has led me to deeper study of Scripture, seeking the counsel of those with more knowledge of doctrine and theology, and leading the process of weeding out inappropriate or weak songs, congregational readings, dramas, and other worship expressions in the worship repertoire or liturgy and replacing them with worship expressions more honoring to God and edifying of the Body. I believe it is a very serious sin if we allow people to inadvertently learn false teaching because we like the way something sounds or are too lazy to pursue the necessary steps of insuring the integrity of our worship.



A casual worship style shouldn't mean a casual approach to worship. Great care and attention should be given to how we invite others to participate and the tolls we give them to do so. As leaders, we are responsible for teaching truth first, not just using something that's cool. Encourage people to think about what they're singing or hearing and to be willing to challenge it in their personal lives. As worshipers we need to participate in worship through music and other expressions as though it's more than just the "warm-up" to the message. This is serious stuff, the promises you make before God, even the ones in the songs, are real and coming with humility and asking God to search your heart is an important part of our worship.



6Do not let your speech cause you to sin and do not say in the presence of the messenger of God that it was a mistake.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Tired

by Jessica


Last night was so awesome. We're all really tired now but looking forward to when we can go back and hang with some really great people. The girls didn't want to leave this morning when we told them it was time for us to go and wanted to know when we could go back. That's pretty cool.


Friday, September 09, 2005

by Jessica



Our very good friend, Steve, leaves for Scotland today. Steve takes at least partial credit for introducing Jeremy and I. Lucky guy will be going to the University of Edinburgh to study Theological Ethics with an emphasis in media and theological ethics and specializing in theology and film. When it's all said and done, he'll have a PhD in Theology. Sounds like so much fun. Steve and Jeremy and I spent hours and hours discussing Scripture, theology, doctrine, the church, worship and the Gospel in the arts back in college and then when Jeremy and I were first married. Steve regularly kicks me in the rear and challenges me in my relationships with Christ and others. Thanks to the internet we won't really miss him, we haven't lived near each other in years but have kept our relationship going via email and instant messaging. I can't wait to discuss with him all the great stuff he'll be studying and how cool will it be to have to watch movie for home work? Have a great trip Steve.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

He's "big enough"

by Jessica


Broken heart I try to hide
I need You to see me
Sweep away the shards of pain
Your beauty in me revealing



I'm afraid You won't hear me when I call
my God, my Salvation
Will You be near me when I fall?
my God, my Salvation
And if Your praises cease on my lips
Will you still call me Your own?



My God, why have You forsaken me?
Hear my cry I pray!
My God, as surely as You give
You have taken away
my God, my Salvation





A true heart to You I bring
You vanquished all pretending
Creator King of all of me
From this pain bring beauty freeing



I'm afraid You won't hear me when I call
my God, my Salvation
Will You be near me when I fall?
my God, my Salvation
And if Your praises cease on my lips
Will you still call me Your own?



My God, why have You forsaken me?
Hear my cry I pray!
My God, as surely as You give
You have taken away
my God, my Salvation



Yesterday, today and tomorrow
You are still the same
In the midst of the joy
Or the agonizing pain





Friday evenings are family night at our house and tomorrow night our family is staying at a local mission-turned shelter to give the operators there a break and a chance to be home with their family for an evening. We feel blessed to get to spend some time with the evacuees, it's going to be a great family night we can hardly wait. The above lyrics came out of a time of frustration in my personal life and are a little bit of Psalm 25, and Job 1 combined with a desire for authenticity in my worship. Thoughts such as those above are ones we are trying to keep in mind as we serve and pray for the evacuees and trying to stay away from telling them how to feel as they go through this. It's ok, God can handle it and can even be honored as we struggle with pain. I am glad He's "big enough."

Copyright 2005

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

The Evangelical Pope

by Jessica


So I'm a little frustrated. Rick Warren was on Good Morning America today speaking on behalf of all pastors, at least evangelical ones, and I was struck with the notion that Rick Warren is kind of perceived as the pope of evangelicalism. Jeremy had the same thought before I even verbalized it. Warren came to Houston yesterday to meet with pastors to tell them how to minister to the evacuees of Katrina particularly in understanding that they're going to need long term help not just emergency assistance. I think all of Houston has realized this but hey, a reminder from a guy from a wealthy California suburban megachurch can't hurt. Sorry, sorry, a little bit of sarcasm coming through there. Warren has had an impact on my life and the ministry I'm called to but there is something about all the "purpose-driven" propaganda I'm having a hard time with. Maybe it's the trademark. But honestly, I've tried to "get it" and I just don't.

In the August 22 issue of TIME Magazine there was an article titled: Warren of Rwanda- The best-selling megapastor wants to turn the genocide site into the first "purpose-driven nation." I'm glad he's helping Rwanda, there's not been enough help there as it is but why does it somehow seem... wrong. Not the help, help is good but that it's somehow about Warren himself, about his "purpose-driven" trademark? I don't really believe that's his intention or at least not his primary one, but it is a great marketing strategy. I'm not sure I understand what his goal is in this either. Does having the first "purpose-driven" nation mean the same thing as having a Christian nation? Is that even what we should be going for? In the entire article there isn't one mention of sharing the Gospel, of course, this is TIME we're talking about, but still, shouldn't that be a verbalized part of Warren's plan- even to the general public? I guess in the end what I'm asking is does this have to be some kind of "purpose-driven" campaign for the evangelical church to finally get involved? There have been independent mission organizations and relief efforts going on there for a long time and ignored by at least the American evangelical church, why suddenly this?


There's been some great ministry through Warren, his church, and his books/programs, I don't want to devalue that at all. I just need to say that whether you call it "purpose-driven," "being Jesus with skin on," "a social Gospel," or "a lifestyle of worship," we are called to serve and love others as Christ- no trademark required. For me, my favorite images from the Katrina aftermath weren't those of President Bush, Rick Warren or any other recognizable figure participating in photo ops with the storm evacuees but those of regular people, small churches, unknown pastors, and neighborhoods serving as unto Christ. That's awesome.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Crazy

by Jessica



This past week has passed in a blur and I've been sick and exhausted.



Last week, in the midst of the immediate (which lasted for a while) aftermath of Katrina I heard a few sentiments expressed regarding the chance to rebuild New Orleans now "without all the sin." I even heard a few people hint at this being the punishment or "God's way of dealing" for New Orleans. I must admit to a laugh out loud when I saw that Burbon Street and the area around it has made it through quite well actually- oh the irony. But what do you think? Do you think it's possible that God sent this storm to take care of New Orleans because of the city's reputation for sin? If you do, how do you explain the number of areas devastated by Hurricane Katrina that could be described as just the opposite of New Orleans if nothing else? And then, how does this impact the churches response to the needs that have arisen as a result of the storm and the devastation she left?



And I'm still planning on posting on worship in the midst of pain- seems even more appropriate now. Yesterday I had the privalidge to serve in an area shelter and hear some of the stories. If you haven't spent any time with the evacuees, you need to know that these people are amazing. I'm looking forward to spending more time with them and helping however I can this week- I'll be volunteering at the Relient Center. I'll post as I can but for now let me just say that I've been convicted and challenged by their response. Wow.