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ON OUR FACES- an ongoing worship discussion

"The god's we worship write their names on our faces, be sure of that. And a man will worship something-have no doubt of that, either. He may think that his tribute is paid in secret in the dark recesses of his heart- but it will out. That which dominates will determine his life and character. Therefore, it behooves us to be careful what we worship, for what we are worshipping we are becoming." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Refuse to accept the status quo. I challenge everything. It is important to me that I understand why I do what I do and I'll challenge everyone else too because that is how I learn. Christ-follower, student, teacher, artist, musician, mother, wife, daughter, friend, home-schooler, doula, home-birther, knitter, abuse survivor, advocate of women, children, families and peace, I value relationships more than anything in this life. There is room for my life for my passions for birth, music, lit., nature, art, dance, knitting, cooking, Scripture, film, theology, philosophy, writing, and loving my family. I know I don't have all the answers and I'm willing to listen, I don't argue for the sake of arguing or to win but I am passionate and opinionated while being open to change. Wrap all that up and then some and serve it with a cup of coffee, a glass of wine and some chocolate and that's a little bit of who I am. Just an ordinary woman in my every day rebellious ways.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Balloon Fiesta

Thanks Laura!

Brilliant, just brilliant


This is as sad as it is hilarious.

".... because Jesus is like pot; cuz before you do it, you think it's stupid... but then once you light up a j you realize it's pretty rad. "

Has to be the single most convincing argument I've ever heard for why someone would want to know Jesus. I would tell you where I found the brilliant quote above but I'm afraid that you would think I'm godless. The pictures are just for fun, after all, I'm posting on the weekend, nothing too deep.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

In the midst of Chaos

"It's so great to see you're comfortable in the midst of the chaos" my student commented as he was standing at our front door about to leave.

I took a moment and looked around, the house was a mess, of course, but it was actually quiet as Jeremy had just gotten the girls to bed so it hardly seemed chaotic to me. Sure, the table is half covered in craft projects and miscellaneous stuff, the side table is covered in a lovely exotic looking throw with a framed print of the Eiffel Tower on it but has a stack of photos all over it hiding the Eiffel Tower picture; the desk- actually, you can see parts of the desk; the coffee table has games, beads, clothes, papers and a box of crayons on it; the couch has an Easter hat, a pair of shoes and a couple of books; all the pillows are on the floor as "jumping cushions;" the arm chair has foam number stickers stuck all over it and you know if you sat down you'd stand up with various variables all over your rear; there is an odd unidentified sticky substance all over the floor by the door; a jumbled mess of shoes protrudes from under the bench by the front door that is loaded with a random collection of items to be either returned or kept and stored some place safe and pieces of Tae Kwon Do uniforms. But still, this hardly seems chaotic to me.

"Well..." was the only intelligent thing I could think of to say.

"No really, you let people into your home when it is a disaster area and it doesn't seem to phase you. My wife would be freaking out. Its just nice to see you've come to terms with the chaos" he says with a warm and comforting smile, his tone touched with something that could either be awe, pity, or bewilderment.

I choke back a snort and smile sweetly.

"I just pick my battles, what's really important to me. The girls are my priority, not a clean house and nice things. I'll clean up when the kids are gone and buy nice furniture then."

"See, that's what I mean. I think that's great. My ex would never have stood for that."

We chat a little more as I walk him out and remind him of what we had worked on that evening.

I didn't bother to tell him that I'm hoping to have learned how to really keep a clean house by the time the girls are gone because when they leave I will have run out of excuses!

Monday, April 17, 2006

When "Uplifting" lets you down

by Jessica Martin-Weber

"We need to be relevant." I hear that a lot when I meet with pastors, youth pastors, and some church leaders. It usually comes from those advocating change in a transitioning church and I've found that it usually means "uplifting contemporary worship." But in their quest to be "relevant" in how they worship and share the gospel many church leaders loose touch with the culture of their congregation as well as the culture they are trying to reach and as a result somehow end up "irrelevant" in a new style.


“Happy, clappy music” and SNL style dramas don’t make a church relevant, nor do small groups. I’m not saying they’re bad (though the music and dramas are certainly not my style) but that it’s more than the programs and worship style that connects people with Christ. Though the term “authentic” is over-used when it comes to talking about worship these days, true authenticity seems to be lacking in most of our churches. When I asked a friend of mine what would make a church relevant to him he said “honesty.” A place where pretence is set aside and we can be who we are without having to have all the answers. A place where we can share honestly about Scripture, relationships, serving, and life’s struggles as well as express praise and celebration. Such a place would be more relevant than all the video clips, small group book discussions, and trendy music you could find. Community is a beautiful thing but community that neglects the harder side of life isn’t really a community, it’s a country club. Constantly being “up” can be tough to live up to and not at all what we see in the struggles found in Scripture. Sure, there are groups that are willing to discuss some of life’s struggles (usually men’s groups and women’s groups) but we don’t usually find this happening in our worship gatherings, at least not outside of the occasional sermon that is willing to wrestle with “the dark side.” Most leaders understand that praise and worship isn’t based on our feelings, but somehow we have managed to communicate just the opposite by only planning high energy praise portions in our services that express constant “up” feelings as in some unnatural high followed by mellow Jesus love songs the have no problem with feigning intimacy without embracing the tension of hurt unsettled that is actually a part of such relationships. I have no doubt that some people really don’t want to deal with the part of themselves that is a "downer” and leaders want worshipers to leave “uplifted” but nowhere do we see in Scripture where denial is accepted (think David, Bathsheba and Nathanial) but growth, with all it’s painful qualities, is embraced and encouraged.



Is relevancy even something we should be seeking? I question the importance of being relevant because I'm struck by the timelessness of the Gospel. Often we hope that we will be relevant by using what are really languages of the culture and certainly these tools help in communicating the Gospel but they don't make us relevant. True relevancy comes from honest living, honest teaching, honest questions and honest worship. We don’t have to do anything to make the message we share relevant, God has already done that. The most we can hope for is to live the Gospel with relevance in our own lives, through the highs and the lows.